Letting go

Tomorrow I am having my port removed.

While my minion has served me well in kicking cancer's ass, my doctor feels I'm cured and no longer need it.

So Yeah! 

Out it comes!

I have to confess I am a little ambivalent.

I feel like my port removal is like tempting fate for a recurrence 

BUT

I need to remember my port does not have magical powers to prevent cancer.

So out it comes tomorrow...

And I have some nice platinum blond (grey) fuzz growing in..

Patience Is a Virtue

I am almost 3 weeks out from my last chemo treatment.

For the past 4 months this is the day I'd be getting myself ready for yet another round of chemo

and all the yuck that comes after.

So I am very thankful to be finished with all of that.

However 

I am impatient to be back to normal again

which means

HAIR!

No neuropathy (numbness/pain) in my hands and feet

Better stamina

Decreased anxiety

Right now, none of the above seem to be happening very fast and I have to say while it may be unrealistic to expect all the above

I do...

And I want it NOW!

Somewhere in my mind there's a very small voice that keeps telling me maybe I will have to adjust to a new normal

And I am not liking that at.all

My Favorite Escape

No it's not Hawaii, Italy or the Caribbean

Although I do love all those places.

My favorite escape is a good book.  

As my chemobrain is improving I'm able to read again.

This makes me so very happy!

One of the ways I've always coped with sadness or hard times is by diving head first into a good book

One of the hardest parts of Chemo was the inability to concentrate enough to read.

As the chemo leaves my system for the final time I'm having a great time catching up on all my reading.

Whether it's a great thriller, a new Stephen King book, a biography or even cook books, I have always had my nose in a book

As far back as third grade I used to walk home from school reading a book...and often ended up either off course or walking into a things because I was so engrossed in the story. Leaving me to explain why I had a bruise on my forehead from walking into a tree!

Many of the stories and characters still live in my mind.

I've also learned so much from books.  Fiction, Nonfiction, Historical or pure Chick-Lit.

It's all been good.  

So have you read a good book lately?  

I have :)